So much for TTA this month! We started the cycle with good intentions to TTA, just because I had applied for the TA job and wanted to be clear on insurance type things. Wellllll we maybe weren't so careful about that -- but it is fine because I ended up not getting the job anyway!
So now I am very hopeful for a BFP, am 8DPO and have phantom symptoms like no other!
On another note -- today is payday! I had big plans of treating myself to a pedicure after work. Sadly, our payroll company decided they were going to forget my check this month, so now I won't get paid until Monday :( They are in Georgia so even if they fed-exed it here over night I still wouldn't get it until Monday. Plus it is the end of the month, and if you have ever had a job where you only get paid once a month, well then you know how hard that last week or so is! So no pedicure today.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Well I am proud to say that I finished my first week of C25K on Sunday! In the rain no less! It had been raining on and off all day and finally came to a point where it looked like it would hold off for a while, so I hit the road -- yeah, not so much. The high school track is really slippery when it is wet and I just kept envisioning myself slipping on the painted lines and numbers and strawberry-ing up my face! But I made it without injury :)
So I have added another goal to my list. You may remember that last week I was dreaming of the day when my thighs did not rub together anymore. Well today I am thinking how lovely it would be to be able to cross one leg over the other without having to wedge it up against the side and top of my desk -- does that make sense? Ahh a girl can dream, I suppose....
I have also lost 5.6 pounds in two weeks, which I am pretty freakin' excited about!
Hmm what else.... Oh I had my job interview on Tuesday for the TA position. Turns out it is not exactly what I thought it would be, but that is ok. It is a "line of sight" position with a little boy with special needs who is also deaf. If I do get the job I would have to learn sign language -- which I think would be amazing! I have always wanted to learn to sign. The job would be a significant paycut, but I would have full state benefits -- with good health insurance. Woohooo!!!! Oh and did I mention summers off? :)
In other news.... You should totally check these guys out. They are pretty much amazing. I'm not kidding.
You're welcome.
So I have added another goal to my list. You may remember that last week I was dreaming of the day when my thighs did not rub together anymore. Well today I am thinking how lovely it would be to be able to cross one leg over the other without having to wedge it up against the side and top of my desk -- does that make sense? Ahh a girl can dream, I suppose....
I have also lost 5.6 pounds in two weeks, which I am pretty freakin' excited about!
Hmm what else.... Oh I had my job interview on Tuesday for the TA position. Turns out it is not exactly what I thought it would be, but that is ok. It is a "line of sight" position with a little boy with special needs who is also deaf. If I do get the job I would have to learn sign language -- which I think would be amazing! I have always wanted to learn to sign. The job would be a significant paycut, but I would have full state benefits -- with good health insurance. Woohooo!!!! Oh and did I mention summers off? :)
In other news.... You should totally check these guys out. They are pretty much amazing. I'm not kidding.
You're welcome.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Since we decided to TTA this month while I figure out my job/insurance situation I have decided to really put some effort into getting healthy again. So I am taking all of my babymaking effort and putting it towards my weight loss effort! And I put a lot of effort into babymaking!
I am really proud of myself so far. Last Tuesday I signed up for SparkPeople.com -- used it for about a day. Don't get me wrong, it is a great website and resource. I ended up signing up for another 3 months of Weight Watchers online. WW just feels comfy to me. I know the plan and I know that it works! So I have been at it for a week and 2 days now and have already lost 5 pounds -- it feels good :) I can already tell a difference in the way my clothes feel. And get this -- my wedding rings fit again! I have been wearing them all along, but normally if I am at home they come off because they are just too uncomfortable on my sausage fingers. Now they slide right on and off without any trouble at all! Go me!
Another thing -- last night I did my first Couch to 5K session. Now I don't really care if I ever get to the point where I can actually run a 5K (I don't even know how far a 5K is, to be honest), I just want to do some type of exercise and I just don't have the money to spend at a gym right now. What I REALLY want is for my thighs not to rub together anymore! Big mistake to wear shorts to the track last night! Ouch.
At least when we do decide to TTC again -- which I hope will be very soon -- I will be that much more healthy :)
I am really proud of myself so far. Last Tuesday I signed up for SparkPeople.com -- used it for about a day. Don't get me wrong, it is a great website and resource. I ended up signing up for another 3 months of Weight Watchers online. WW just feels comfy to me. I know the plan and I know that it works! So I have been at it for a week and 2 days now and have already lost 5 pounds -- it feels good :) I can already tell a difference in the way my clothes feel. And get this -- my wedding rings fit again! I have been wearing them all along, but normally if I am at home they come off because they are just too uncomfortable on my sausage fingers. Now they slide right on and off without any trouble at all! Go me!
Another thing -- last night I did my first Couch to 5K session. Now I don't really care if I ever get to the point where I can actually run a 5K (I don't even know how far a 5K is, to be honest), I just want to do some type of exercise and I just don't have the money to spend at a gym right now. What I REALLY want is for my thighs not to rub together anymore! Big mistake to wear shorts to the track last night! Ouch.
At least when we do decide to TTC again -- which I hope will be very soon -- I will be that much more healthy :)
Sunday, July 11, 2010
What to do, what to do......
Well we may be putting TTC on hold for a little while :(
I am in grad school right now working on my MAT in Special Education. I have a Bachelor's in Sociology, which if you have one then you know it is a pretty much worthless degree. Thankfully I have actually been able to find work since I got out of school, so I guess the fact that it is a 4 year degree is worth something at least! But I am really unhappy at my job -- it is actually what persuaded me to go back to school. I had a REALLY bad day at work about 2 years ago and I thought to myself "Screw this! I'm going back to school!" So I started on my MAT the next month! Of course I had to keep my job because let's face it -- money doesn't grow on tress.
I have been wanting to get a job with a school system for a while, but since I am not licensed yet options are pretty limited. Well this past week they listed 4 TA jobs in the EC classroooms in my district! After a lot of thought and a discussion with my husband I ended up applying for them. I want to be in a classroom -- I need the experience. But it will be a HUGE paycut for me -- like half of my salary. Yikes! But the upside is, I would have good benefits, which my current job doesn't offer -- like health insurance! I have health insurance with maternity coverage now -- but I buy it privately and it is bleeding me dry! Like $417 a month!
So I think we are going to be putting TTC on hold for at least a month until I find out about my job situation. I just don't feel comfortable continuing without knowing what I will be doing. I am really sad about this, but I know it is the best decision for us right now. I will still be daydreaming about my phantom baby though -- that will never change :)
I am in grad school right now working on my MAT in Special Education. I have a Bachelor's in Sociology, which if you have one then you know it is a pretty much worthless degree. Thankfully I have actually been able to find work since I got out of school, so I guess the fact that it is a 4 year degree is worth something at least! But I am really unhappy at my job -- it is actually what persuaded me to go back to school. I had a REALLY bad day at work about 2 years ago and I thought to myself "Screw this! I'm going back to school!" So I started on my MAT the next month! Of course I had to keep my job because let's face it -- money doesn't grow on tress.
I have been wanting to get a job with a school system for a while, but since I am not licensed yet options are pretty limited. Well this past week they listed 4 TA jobs in the EC classroooms in my district! After a lot of thought and a discussion with my husband I ended up applying for them. I want to be in a classroom -- I need the experience. But it will be a HUGE paycut for me -- like half of my salary. Yikes! But the upside is, I would have good benefits, which my current job doesn't offer -- like health insurance! I have health insurance with maternity coverage now -- but I buy it privately and it is bleeding me dry! Like $417 a month!
So I think we are going to be putting TTC on hold for at least a month until I find out about my job situation. I just don't feel comfortable continuing without knowing what I will be doing. I am really sad about this, but I know it is the best decision for us right now. I will still be daydreaming about my phantom baby though -- that will never change :)
Monday, July 5, 2010
On to the next.....again.
Well at some point today I will officially be moving on to cycle 7. My temp dropped below the coverline this morning and I am 15 DPO. This sucks. When we started TTC, I actually believed that I would be getting ready to deliver a baby in September. Yes I thought it would happen right away -- I never in a million years thought that getting pregnant would be so hard.
This month has been hard, harder than the others. We are officially past the halfway mark of 6 months TTC -- that is a little scary. I can't stop thinking about all of the what-ifs. And I finally got to meet my nephew! Don't get me wrong, he is such a blessing and I absolutely adore him. I love my nephew, and I love my sister with all my heart. I love seeing them together and watching her learn to be a new mom -- but it is really, really hard. A constant reminder of what I have been praying so hard for, and that my prayers haven't been answered yet.
The constant questions from my family don't help much either. "When are you having one?" "When is Levi getting a first cousin?" "You know, its your turn now!" Yes, thanks so much for the reminder that yet another month has gone by and I am not pregnant. Thank you so much! I am about to break down and tell them all that yes, we have been trying and to SHUT IT! They don't realize it, but their words hurt.
So I declare today "Give Up On Life" Day -- I plan on laying here on the couch, eating junk food and watching daytime TV until I can't stand it anymore.
This month has been hard, harder than the others. We are officially past the halfway mark of 6 months TTC -- that is a little scary. I can't stop thinking about all of the what-ifs. And I finally got to meet my nephew! Don't get me wrong, he is such a blessing and I absolutely adore him. I love my nephew, and I love my sister with all my heart. I love seeing them together and watching her learn to be a new mom -- but it is really, really hard. A constant reminder of what I have been praying so hard for, and that my prayers haven't been answered yet.
The constant questions from my family don't help much either. "When are you having one?" "When is Levi getting a first cousin?" "You know, its your turn now!" Yes, thanks so much for the reminder that yet another month has gone by and I am not pregnant. Thank you so much! I am about to break down and tell them all that yes, we have been trying and to SHUT IT! They don't realize it, but their words hurt.
So I declare today "Give Up On Life" Day -- I plan on laying here on the couch, eating junk food and watching daytime TV until I can't stand it anymore.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Love at first sight....
Last night I finally got to meet my brand new nephew, Levi James. I am so totally in love with him already! After a long and hard labor, Levi finally decided to join us on June 30, 2010 at 10:14 PM. He was 7 lb, 3 oz. and 19 inches long. He is an absolute doll baby :)
xoxo
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